Psalm 62

"Which comes easier to you, being hopeful or being humble?"

Of course if you say "being humble" that's hilarious. But then again, being hopeful is really hard to claim as being 'easy'. So what would I choose? Many of you know that I am somewhat of a pessimist. Better to be pleasantly surprised than disappointed right? I know that my point of view is in sharp contrast to many of you. (Which probably resulted in some cringing.) That's okay- I'm an Eeyore and claim my rain cloud.

As so, you'd think that I would say it's easier to be humble... but it's actually the opposite. Being humble is on a fine line for me. God gave everyone gifts, mine happens to be visual and easy to recognize. I'm not trying to brag, I just want to acknowledge and embrace what I was given. Marketing my paintings in a competitive world is hard... I have to overstep my skewed perception of humility. My natural feeble attempt at being humble tends to cut me off at the knees. Whether it's giving credit to someone else, taking less money than I maybe deserve, or giving away something I want to keep... I more often than not fail at doing "humility" well. I know there is a way to keep humble and not be taken advantage of... but I will definitely say- I haven't found out how- it's NOT easy.

Which leaves me as being hopeful as a pessimist. What does it mean to be hopeful anyways? Ryan made great point that Hope is not purely optimism. --Hope means to trust that our God, our loving Father will fulfill his promises. Placing your trust and hope in the Maker of all things is not just leaving your luck up to the cosmos, but believing in the promises that He is in control. He has a plan.

In my life I always prepare for the worst... but it does not break me, not any more. I know that because I can trust the foundation in front of me, my walk is safe and I can hum joyfully at the stars. (otr) I rest easy knowing that the trials I'm given can be overcome with hope in the valley's and trust on the mountains.

"For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation... Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us." -Psalm 62:5-9